My New Years Resolution

Is kinda embarrasing. The First isn't,


1. Meet The Jonas Brothers
2. Fall in love. Actual love, or at least where I am happy. (not with the Jonas Brothers if that is what you're thinking. It would be nice though wouldn't it?)

Gotta Go My Own Way

It's the Asian version of Vanessa Anne Hudgens!

And Now...

To top off my already fawesome blog.. I added MUSIC!!!!! All Jonas Brother music, of course. Duh. SQUEE!!!! It's soooo fool!!!!

Well

My birthday was good. I got another Jonas Brother poster, I got a gift card to Borders, and I got some new earrings, and a necklace. And I got a couple new XBox games and a few games for my Pc. ^_^ Well, I hope you guys had a Merry Christmas. And A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

This Is Red

He murdered the Skittles!!! How could you Red?! Your a murderer... *gasp* I'm friends with a murderer? *faints* I'm so dead.

Ok

I totally kicked everybody's ass (excuse the language) at LaserTag. I rock! It was totally fawesome!! Cha, I just said fawesome.

Today Is A Good Day

Today is my Birthday! Oh, yeah. Uh- huh. OK my mom is looking at me like I've lost it. And maybe I have. Oh, well!!! Today I'm having a sleepover with a few of my friends. So I'll let you know how that goes later.

YAYNESS!

Tomorrow I am going to play LaserTag with my cousin, Brennan, and my best friend, Gabby. We are playing at a professional LaserTag place in San Diego. It's were the held the World Tournment of LaserTag.

This Christmas

I got some more softball gear, a new mountain bike, portable DVD player, and JONAS BROTHER POSTERS!!!!! SQUEE TO THE MAX!!!

Well.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!

Haha

Ok, this made my day. My dog, Lucy, climbed on our table and peed on it.... my mom was sooo mad at me. Because I was laughing my head off. Anyways my mom is making me wear a dress tomorrow. Who knows maybe I'll post a picture of me on there.

YAY!! I think....

Christmas Eve is tomorrow. I can't say I'm that excited. I'm really not. Well, my birthday is coming up. It's December 29. 4 days after Christmas. woopdido. Not excited about much anymore. I kind of am just letting go... sinking under depression. My mom is really worried about me. For reasons you won't know unless you saw me.

I know what your thinking..

I know you think they are all cute and innocent but, they're really evil!!! And snow monkeys do exist. And our social security will run out before we're 30!!! Don't ask me how I know that.

Quote of the day.

My friend came over the other day and I called Nick and she was fine till he said ' Are you still obsessing over me? ' She totally made fun of him and everything. Then, he got silent and this brings us to our quote of the day. This is what she said ' Did my sarcasm hurt your feelings?Aww,poor baby.Guess what?BUILD A BRIDGE AND GET OVER IT! '

Photo of the Day

How can you look at him and not fall in love with him??? HE'S GORGEOUS AND TALENTED!!!!! Though he did sound like a girl when he was younger... NO OFFENSE NICK!! or should I say Nicole... ^_^

Quote of the day

It's funny, most people can be around someone and then gradually begin to love them and never know exactly when it happened. --Anonymous

Jonas Brothers

This is what the Jonas Brothers look like in sheer terror.

Diabetes

This is when Nick Jonas Reveals his Diabetes. It is a really good speech. AWWW!!

My Favorite Song

Jonas Brothers

Since You Asked

Well, he texted me really rude stuff and was all in my face about stuff and it didn't, uh... end well.

NO!!!

Nick was a real jerk yesterday and I am really super mad at him!!!!!! And we won our first two softball games!!!

Quote of the Day

I'm not different. I'm just not qualified as normal.--Unknown




P.S. I just got this new book called When God Winks At You. It is really, really cool!!!

Waz up???

I know I haven't been around a lot lately. It is just that school is totally throwing off my schedule. In case you didn't know I made the softball team and our first game is tomorrow so YAY!!! And I am really mad at my friend BekaBoo because she wouldn't leave me alone about my ex boyfriend. So yadayada more drama. I swear that is all she texts me about any more. And she wasn't at softball practice so she won't play in the game tomorrow and Alaina and I are getting stressed about our History skit. EHCURUMBA!!!

NickJonas getting a little full of himself, eh?

Nick j is off the chain


Yo I'm so hot
Just like a tamale
So destructive
Just like a tsunami
Everytime I'm near
The red cross is there
Cause that's how I'll be doing things
Because...

Nick J is off the chain
Whenever he's near, they fear his name
Nick J is off the chain
He's off the chain
Alright, ready

Whats my name say it once again
Nick J, Nick J, Nick J, Nick J
Whats my name say it once again
Nick J, Nick J, Nick J, Nick J

That's Just The Way We Roll

Lyrics by the Jonas Brothers


I woke up on my roof with my brothers
There's a whale in the pool with my mother
And my dad paints the house different colors
Where would we be, if we couldn't dream?

And I know
We get a little crazy
And I know
We get a little loud
And I know
We're never gonna fake it
We are wild
We are free
We are more than you think
So call us freaks
But that's just the way we roll

You got moves, I've got shoes, let's go dancing
Pop and lock, battle dance [battle dance] against Hanson
If we lose, all the girls, they'll be laughing
Where would we be, if we couldn't dream?

And I know
We get a little crazy
And I know
We get a little loud
And I know
We're never gonna fake it
We are wild
We are free
We are more than you think
So call us freaks
But that's just the way we roll

And we're old enough to know
We're never letting go
'Cause that's just the way we roll

And I know
We get a little crazy
And I know
We get a little loud
And I know
We're never gonna fake it
We are wild
We are free
We are more than you think
So call us freaks
But that's just the way we roll

And I know
We get a little crazy
And I know
We get a little loud
And I know
We're never gonna fake it
We are wild
We are free
We know more than you think
So call us freaks
'Cause that's just the way we roll
That's just the way we roll
Oh That's just the way we roll

Back Again

Well, I am back and depressed. Chocolate doesn't work anymore. *sigh*

Death

This morning around 4:00am my grandma passed away. I am really sad. But, pray for my dad. He's taking it pretty good. But, I think he is just hiding the pain. Well, I'll miss her. I wrote her a poem though.


Death.
Soft and slient;
moving swiftly through are lives,
without a peep.
I hope she hears me,
so far away.
May she look down apon me;
every single day,
I hope she's happy;
way up there,
were parades of joy go on and on,
while down her there is only pain and sorrow.
Oh, sweet, sweet misery,
why come now?
I bring you in with despair,
but I will always care.

Catching up

Well, I tried out for softball. I'm not sure if I made the team yet. My coach is supposed to call me. I am really nervous. I think I did pretty good, though.

This was just too funny..

BobGuy:" Will you kiss me?"
MyFriend"NO!!!"
BobGuy goes to his neext victim.

BobGuy:"Hey."
Me."Will you do my hmwk?"
BobGuy:"When pigs fly!!"
Me."you fly??" I pushed him off the bleachers. MY FRIEND WAS SOOOOO LAUGHING HARD!!!!!! She kicked when he was down.

SHE LIVES!

I have to get off. BYE! GAH! My mom took my phone away...

Quote Of The DAY

I'm so cool I shit ice cubes!-- Unknown

OK!

At least I have one true friend! Whose name is Kat. That's right all you guilty people! WAHHHHAJHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA! I just added the J to be random.

AVRIL IS REALLY A BRAT?!

Did you know that Avril made a little girl cry at her wedding? It's true. Cha.

I Miss Love

I don't know why. But, I've only really felt it once. With someone special. I didn't even really know him. *sigh* I am single and hating it.

This is all I have to say about my eye.

I guess I ran into that wall a little too hard,eh?

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

I got today off because it is a future work day.... Yeah. I don't get either. I'll tell you what I do get.... NO SCHOOL!!!!! One drawback though. My eye was swollen shut last night! Boy... Was I a sight.

This is totally me...

I am a piece of toast?! NO WAY! Since when I wonder....



I love you in that sort of twisted way :P










Dayzha did that after school today.... Hilarious ^_^










I will never let Gabby drive when we are old enough to drive. This would be the reason why.....









Yea... They won't even talk to me. How rude!




My friend actually did that! lol.

AH. Nick. Just freakin' ask for directions.


IT'S BOB! Quick hide your COOKIES!

Yeah, I don't really like the cussing. But it is still true ^_^

I HATE YOU ALL!!!!!!

Why? You might ask. Because you won't talk to me.... I get BORED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OK

I am posting before school today. I am really bored. Someone SAVE ME! I think Garren and Wolf Boy(is it?) are gonna not die! YAYNESS! That would make me a little happier.

VOTE

At NightwingGal's new and updated blog. Ahem, which I updated. It is really cute. Here's the link: gabbysblogthebest.blogspot.com. So go check that out! Yes, I changed my name. I have to stay a Sly Girl don't qusetion me. Gabby has to go home. -_- She has an essay to write. BYE!

Quote of the day

"I make the Cowardly Lion look like the Terminator."-- Bella (Twilight)

Gabby and MOI

Gabby: Hola people.
Claire: Yea. I'm not sure if she is right in the head right now.
Gabby:shut up.(punch)
Claire: She hit me (ow) that hurt... I think?
Gabby:(smirk) Ha,Ha
Claire: ok you wanna play hard? (elbow to the stomach) I actually hit her. Wow she is making me a violent person.
Gabby:Ow...... why me..do I look like a punching bag.
Claire:uh, yes???
Gabby:Grrrrrr..
Claire: Hey thats my logo!!! Wanna see my trademark. I copywrited that.
Gabby:U have a logo?
Claire: yep. buy while supplies last. taxes and side effects may apply. contact your doctor if you are feeling drowsy lightheaded and having blur in vision BLAH BLAH BLAH
Gabby:Bit me .. that's my logo and by my side effects u mean brusies?
Claire: I think you mean 'Bite Me'. And my new code name is.. moonlightgirl yours is bluepixiedust.. haha
Gabby: why blue?
Moonlightgirl: oh ok. pink then.
Gabby:nooooo.....no pink please. I'm beging u..
Moonlightgirl: ok. hmm......your new codename is balletprinces125
Gabby: That's wrong.. u shall kill my dignity with that code name.. yours is pinklover123
Moonlightgirl: fine yours is CaliGirl123
Gabby:Doesen't go with my words...
Moonlightgirl: Fine. SlyGirl666
Gabby:What do u mean Sly???
Moonlightgirl: NightWing
NightwingGal:O.K but with GAL at the end.
Moonlightgirl: Ok lets stop bugging the poor unfortunate souls and stop talking. OK bluepixiedust???
NightwingGal:Why are u going Little Mermaid on me? WHAT DID U CALL ME... I hate u. Bite me ..
Moonlightgirl: Grr. Night Everybody!! ^_^


And that is how it ended. We all died because of the evil pink pixie horses ate us. DARN YOU! I just got these shoes!

Florida

Guess what? I might be moving in a month to Florida. Guess where? The Forida Keyes. If I do move. It'll be fun! I'll have somewhere to explore. I can't wait. That is only if my dad takes the job. I really don't know if I am happy or mad. I guess when he really makes his decision I'll find out how I feel.

Fires

Yes, I am near where the fires are. My house is not in danger but, it is depressing the damge it has done. The Santa Ana winds made it worse by spreading them around. THESE ARE NOT WILDFIRES! Some sick twisted person started them.

Sick

I got to stay home from school today! I threw up and have some stomach virus ^_^ YAY! NO SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!

Quote of the day

Edward: "How can someone so tiny be so annoying?"
Alice: "It's a talent."

Storm

There was a lot of fires and really strong winds today. At school we had to stay inside all day. We didn't even eat lunch outside. ^_^ It was actually kind of fun though if you really think about it. I'll later upload some videos of how stupid people are at my school. Yeah... it was pretty darn funny that video was. $_$ MONEY!!! Jk.

Homecoming

Well, Me and Gabby went to homecoming last Saturday and of course our team dominated. We went to the dance and then we went to Breezy's Birthday Party. Gabby and Brenan like each other. It is too obvious. Face it Gabby, your in love!!!

There is not way to name this post.

NICK CALLED AND TEXTED ME!!!!!! No we are not dating. Correction. We are just friends. But thats a start right???

Quote of the worst day of my life.

MY BINKY! Mine.

Nick said...

He likes some one else. But he said that to Sarah. He doesn't know that I wrote the note. Yet. I think I'll tell him ... NEVER!!! Because if he has a crush on someone I won't tell him that I like him. He just broke up with his girlfriend. I bet he likes Kristen. Yea.. Me no likey her. She is a little skinny, preppy, royal snot. I think that pretty much clears it up for ya.

Quote of the... DAY!!!

Justin- "Look at me I'm Santa Clause"
Me-" QUICK! Jump him for his Snickers bars!!!"
Justin-"WAH!!! Attack of the evil Claire! Oh wait she's always evil."
Me-" No I'm just cute and a Physco things even out."

I never thought I'd be able to say that in a sentence!!! :)

YAY-NESS!!!

You like my blog Courtney!!! (aww shucks) Ok... Another Snickers... I CAN'T HELP THEY ARE SO DANG GOOD!!!!! teh he.

Quota and Randomness for the day

I HAVE THOSE SOCKS!!! In case you haven't noticed. I had another Snickers. Shh! Don't tell anyone. teh he... I LOVE NICK SPAWN!!! Ok. All better now.

MAKE OVER

Watch'a think. Too pink???

That Was soooo scary...

I snuck out last night and went to my friend's house. I was halfway through her window when BOOM! she pushed me out of her window!!! I stayed on the ground because her mom had caught us. Busted... Well, I am not grounded. But Gabby is. SORRY GABBY!!! :( Yeah... hope she is off grounding by Friday.

Quote of the day

I agree Happy Bunny. I agree. Just kidding. If you don't I STILL LOVE YOU! *hugs*

Poor Mom

She got sick this morning so we drove home instead of going to SeaWorld. This Saturday me and Gabby are going surfing. Then after that both of us are going to my six, soon to be seven, year-old cousin's birthday party. Her name is Aubriana but we call her Breezy. She is an absolute angel. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! Her birthday is Oct. 19. She is growing up to be just like me. She loves to read. She is only in first grade!!! Her teacher even offered to send her to second grade. She is really something special.

WOW

Today was truly awesome. I got a new surfboard and I got to go to the beach. We walked all along the pier. And tomorrow we are going to SeaWorld!!! It is going to be sooooo awesome.

Quote Of the day!!!

hehe. so true, so true.

OK

I am not quiting since I got a thousand e-mails!!! Thanks guys thoug for the support. It is nice to know you care. And one more day to vote for my turtles names. Ok. I have to get off and go do something for my newest friend Abby. So later. And Kat. You really need me? Aw. That's sooo sweet. Thank you. I need to know that someone elses life is messed up just like mine. BYe!

hehe... these are funny

That is it!

These stupid comments are driving me crazy! I quit. No one comes on no one cares so it just makes sense to quit.

Quote of the day

I live for today, not for tomorrow-- Unknown

Grr.

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Fine don't miss me. Hehe. Dayzha likes Timmy. But I have to say Megan and Timmy are perfect for each other. They are both jerks. Nick. Ah. Nick. If only he'd notice me more. I almost asked him out today. Almost. But, of course. Dumbo Ol' me. I chickened out. Sigh. This is my new Favorite Artist.

Quote of the day

This was like right before her arms caught on fire. I was kinda cool.

"Look. I'm burning." -- Demon (Silent Hill)

That was an awesome movie. It was sad. They both died and never saw the father again. And it was really messed up though. It was sort of... creepy.

Some other cool profile pics...

I found off of random people I don't know. So here they are. Ok. I might know one. But who would that be? The world may never know.

Some awesome pics...

I know most of you will be like, she has finally lost it. But, these pictures are really really awesome.

I am bored...

No one is on because it is late. Drat. I wanted to talk to Red about sometin'. I guess I'll tell him tomorrow. G'Night. I might not post again. Actually I might. Hmmmmm. Let me ponder that. OK I am done. It is a possibility. Wow all I am doing ranting about random and not to mention useless stuff. Later.

Lalala

My uncle is watching football and making fun of me because I said y'all and ain't. Grr. My deep southern roots have forsaken me again.

OMG!

My dad said he got me a ticket to see the Jonas Brothers in concert! But it all depends on if I don't have a party, huh? Drat. Gabby slept over last night. It was soooooo much fun. We watched Silent Hill and Constantine. And tonight she is going to come back over and we are going to watch Interview With A Vampire. HOLLA! Awesome-ness is this weekend-ness!!! That was really retarded what I just said.

I feel...

Like the song Perfect by Simple Plan. My parents left for the weekend. So I won't see my dad for two whole weeks! He is never here. He is always gone during the week. It makes me sad. I wish he was here. But he isn't and I am not what they expected or wanted me to be so I guess I am a freak all together. eh?

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just made a YouTube Video!!!!! It is about Edward and Bella.

Blabbidy Blah Blah.

Hate life, hate braces, hate my hair and I FREAKING WANT HALO 3 RIGHT NOW! Other than that I'm perfect. It was my brothers birthday yester day. yay * throws hands in a whop di do expression * No I really feel like Welcome To My Life by Simple Plan applies to me. Grr. Timmy. If looks could kill he'd all ready be dead. He's scared of me but won't admit it because he is on the football team. Hmph!!! Like he could play!

Undecided

Nick has a girfriend. I don't know what to do. I think I just need to get over him, or be patient and see if he will break-up with her. That is a bad thing to hope, yet I still do. Tell me, what should I do?

I don't know what to name this post.

Well, some of my friends came over and I showed them Red's Alfred Ashfor imitation. They are still laughing. And one of them, she told me not to say her name, thinks you're cellphone video, and thinks your cute. OW! She just slapped me. I just broke it to her that you live in another state, I didn't say which. OW! She just slapped me again. I can't tell a lie. Haha on her though. She is soooooo red. I can't tell if it is from anger or embarassment. Ow! I think its anger. SAVE ME!!!!!!!!

This is Fred. You can't see the back of his shell but, that was really screwed up too. Another moment of silence for Fred, he passed away. Go towards the Big Terrarium in the sky! Go swim with all the other turtles. I'll miss you!

OK. I am officially mental. I need proffesional help. I'll go to Dr. Angel.

DANG IT!!

Gabby has to clean her room so she won't be over for like fifteen minutes. And again. Grr.

Untitled

I got so bored in Pre-Al that I wrote all OVER my bookcover. It says the stupidest things too. I totally have to put pictures of it on here. Me and Abby, not Gabby, were writing on my Science bookcover too. I don't really like my Science teacher, Ms. Curnyn. She is evil.

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just realized something. I REACHED 200 POSTS!!!!!!! How is that for a delayed reaction? Huh. Gabby is eating dinner, then she is coming over. In history I could have killed Timmy. He was like, ' Look at Chloe flirting with Matthias. ' I don't even like Matthias as a friend! I just wanted to find more about Nick, since Matthias is on his foootballl team. I HATE YOU TIMMY!!! He makes me sooooo mad sometimes.

Ummm

Another thing is I am going to try out for the soccer team this year! *crickets* Nobody like me? *pouts some more* Anywho Marley, my bestest friend ever, IS GOING TO CUT HER HAIR!! No. I loooove her hair long. Grr. Gabby is supposed to comeover. So I don't know why she isn't here yet. COME ON OVER, GABBY! I am calling her right now.

hehe

*blushes* Nick said hi to me... AGAIN! Sorry got a little excited. UGH! I lost my voice today. I was screaming tooo loud in P.E. again. We are playing volleyball right now so I was screaming and running and seriving and... you get the picture. And yes Red I got Simple Plan from you. THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH! I loooooove them. And DAMN IT! Soar quit his blog. *pouts* He won't get back on either. Grr. Brandon and Micheal hid from me so I couldn't spray them with my blue powerade. Drat.

Grr.

Nobody missed me? I was gone for two days because my computer was down. And yes I changed my name and profile pic. And Nick was being so stupid today. He was like "Big man!" And jumped like right next to my car's window, just to say hi and run away. Then these kids sprayed me with axe. Grr. I'll get them tomorrow for that one. I smell like a man now. *shivers* Anyways. It feels like y'all are ignoring me. Are you. ONE more thing, VOTE FOR MY TURTLES NEW NAME!!!!!

Hmmm.

What to say, what to say. IF NICK EVER READS THIS I AM GOING TO DIE! I love Nick. He is in eighth grade. And he was staring at me today! Probably because he thought I was weird. Yep. Story of my life. He has I game today. I hope he wins. He plays football. He is number 55. GO NICK!

Rhianna doesn't call you for a long time but.

Leave a message and she will get back to you eventually. Which is like two years. Got to her myspace and find out. And all she said was thanks for being a fan and blah blah blah. It was recorded. BUT IT WAS FOR ME!!! She says she tries to get back to you. And does eventually.

Edward Cullen and Bella Swan ...

HAVE MYSPACE!!!!!!!!!

O MY GOSH!!!!!!!!!

I JUST TALKED TO RHIANNA!!!!!! She like texted me and then called me! * SCREAMS HEAD OFF *

SQUEE!!!!!!!!

I think Nick likes me!! He is in eighth grade and is a total hottie and is so super funny. *sigh* I have had a crush on him for like ever!

I have hit the all time low

I made my best friend's phone go off in class. SORRY GABBY! I didn't know she didn't get out of school till 3:30 PM. I get out an hour before her. SO SO SORRY! On the bright side she didn't get it taken away. Hallelujah!

Fred died.

So I am really upset right now. *sigh* He went to the big aquarium in the sky. My dad is going to get me another turtle. I am going to name it Edward Cullen! Shock, shock. I know. A moment of silence and prayer for Fred.

GO TO MY NEW BLOG!

thedarkestpartofme.blogspot.com. It is a fan-fic about Bella and Edward. It is really realy off base. But has the same meaning.

It's the wondeful World of...

HOMEWORK!!! Comment yes or no if you like homework. IF you do like homework, GET OFF MY BLOG AND DON'T COME BACK!!!!! I have TONS of homework. UGH!

I see dots.

Create your own visitor map!

Mappy Thingy.

Create your own visitor map!

FRED, OH FRED!

Fred won't eat. I don't know what to do. By the way Courtney LOVE YOUR BLOG!!!!!

Can't Stop Laughing!

My dad was like ' Go clean your room.' Me, ' Um, what did you just say?' Dad, ' Go jump off a cliff. ' Me, ' May I ask why? ' Dad,' no ' Me ' Okay! ' Dad, ' Why is our daughter so weird? ' Mom, ' She has you for a father. Duh! '

WAY TO GO MOM!

Football Game.

Me and Gabby also went to my football game on Friday. We won 50 to 0. It was awesome. She slept over at my house too. COOLIO!

One more thing...

Yesterday my dog got out. So I had to hop some fences and get her back. It was my dog, Snickers, of course. I taught Lucy how to fetch!!!!! Not only does she fetch balls and Frisbees but, she fetches rocks too!

WE WENT TO THE BEACH!!!!!!

Me and Gabby went to the beach today. It was soooo much fun. We didn't take my surfboard because we took my dad's car. Fred won't eat. :( I am worried about him. I hope he's alright.

You'll never guess what...

I found in my pool! A turtle!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It was abused and half dead. It was so sad. But, guess what? I get to keep it!!!!!! I named him Fred.

URG!

Picture day was horrible! I didn't smile so the guy was like, " Do you need me to take out Mr. Monkey?" SOOOOO HORRIBLE.

NO!!!!!!!

Picture Day is tomorrow and I have a cold! UGH! I am going to look so horrible. Someone save me. I HATE PICTURE DAY! *screams so loud windows break* oops. I didn't do it!

OK

I changed my name, so no you were not invaded. And I changed my blog background. And I have a new profile picture. And my name, turtleluvr123 is my youtube name too. LOVE YA!

Never Alone- Barlow Girls

I know I just totally destroyed someone's heart today. But, this is how I felt when he said that to me. Then I thought of God, yes I am a Christian, and then I thought of this song. They are really awesome. Yep, that's them good ol' country folk.

It's Over.

Everything I stand for about love and the Internet got destroyed when I met Red. I gave up everything to make it work, and I regret it. I shouldn't have done it. I shouldn't of tried, I should have just told him that we should be friends. So if you don't know who to blame right now, Blame me. I am sorry I did this to you Red and myself. So can we still be friends? Or is that impossible?

You know something?

It didn't have to be like this, Red. But, if you want to do it this way. Fine. I'll be you worst nightmare. Ask A.A. when we were fighting what we did to each other. Yeah, it was really bad. And guess what? Anna got her wish. I am dead (emotionally) and you are starting to act like an emo. SO BACK OFF!!!!!!

Waking Up.

Time passes. Even when it seems impossible. Even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does. Even for me. - Bella Swan (New Moon)


It has only been moments or hours rather that I sat suffering in my room, crying but know all I have have is that numb sense of healing. Not forgetting and never healing all the way. It is just there as I reminder not to make the same mistakes again. I'll never trust, or be the same again. After not only what he did, but what others have also done to me so cruelly. But, I'll try to fight my way out of that dark pool. Even though it is better and easier than facing the truth. So I'll get over it, eventually. But, it shall be a long time before I learn to love and trust again.

OK!!

This is not about Ark, Red, or who ever. LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!! I don't want to talk about it. It just isn't about him ok? That just added to this little charade. I don't know what anyone thinks about me anymore. So I just give up. I HATE MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!

JEZZE!

OK, I don't know what is going on. Nor do I care. So I'll post later. When I feel like it.

My Life is Officially Over.

Ark and Kerrigan, now Red, deleted his blog and became a different person. I think my parents hate me. I am doing awesome in school. It feels like the world is pressing down on me again. Guess I'll always be there on that moutain all alone with a cloud above my head. In other words I am depressed again.

I am having a mental break down!

Ark said he is going to quit!!!! NO!!!!!!! I am on I am on!!!!!!! Get on. NOW! I am sorry I haven't been on lately. Please don't quit. Please?

Gaspard Ulliel!!!!!!

And he is the perfect Edward Cullen!!!! Those pictures are all of him. Emily browning is the perfect Bella Swan. And those pictures are of them together. HE IS HOT!!! OW! He burnt my finger.

he's hot right? I know he is.